Motherhood is a very funny thing, after the moment I found out I was pregnant with twins I began feeling this strange new emotion that I do not recall ever feeling before; the strange combination of excitement and fear.
I remember the first time I found out, I was gripped with a hysterical laughter. I imagine I looked like a lunatic sitting there in that waiting room laughing about seemingly nothing. I just couldn't help myself, I was so excited! I was having twins! Before that moment I probably would have told you that my absolute worst fear was to have twins but in that moment when my fear was suddenly a reality I became nothing short of enthusiastic towards the idea. Even my husband sat there with a beaming look on his face as he tried his best to quiet me down.
It was later that the fear really began to sink in and the words "will I really be a good mom," or "I don't think I am responsible enough for this," kept floating through my head. I was a first time Mom and had no idea what to expect, though I am sure every mother has been there at one point or another.
Luckily when the twins finally arrived I found that all of the fear about being a good Mom washed away and was replaced with the kind of love only a mother could truly understand. I knew right then and there that I would do absolutely anything for these sweet babies and that I was not, under any circumstances, going to let myself be a bad mother to these two precious babies. My husband and these babies are what gave me the kick in the butt I needed to turn my life around and I will always be eternally thankful for that.
I remember the first time I found out, I was gripped with a hysterical laughter. I imagine I looked like a lunatic sitting there in that waiting room laughing about seemingly nothing. I just couldn't help myself, I was so excited! I was having twins! Before that moment I probably would have told you that my absolute worst fear was to have twins but in that moment when my fear was suddenly a reality I became nothing short of enthusiastic towards the idea. Even my husband sat there with a beaming look on his face as he tried his best to quiet me down.
It was later that the fear really began to sink in and the words "will I really be a good mom," or "I don't think I am responsible enough for this," kept floating through my head. I was a first time Mom and had no idea what to expect, though I am sure every mother has been there at one point or another.
Luckily when the twins finally arrived I found that all of the fear about being a good Mom washed away and was replaced with the kind of love only a mother could truly understand. I knew right then and there that I would do absolutely anything for these sweet babies and that I was not, under any circumstances, going to let myself be a bad mother to these two precious babies. My husband and these babies are what gave me the kick in the butt I needed to turn my life around and I will always be eternally thankful for that.